I suffered from anxiety/panic attacks. I suffered from them for many years. I was a young and innocent teen, and one day out of nowhere I felt a feeling in my stomach as if a bowling ball dropped in it. Then my heart started racing along with shortness of breath and extreme fear. I just knew I was dead. After that first attack, I could not get my mind off of what happened. That was the beginning of years of sheer torture. My attacks eventually got to the point where I had them every day several times a day. I was in constant fear. Fear of dying. I thought about death every day all day. I was scared to take baths because I thought I would die in the tub. I was scared to sleep because I thought I would die in my sleep. I was scared to ride in a car because of the fear of a attack coming on. I literally had to carry a cup of ice water with me when riding in a car so if a attack came on I could pour the water down my shirt. For some reason the cold water helped. It seemed to anyway. There was times to where I jumped in the shower with all cold water and fully clothed in the midst of a attack. These attacks cost me a lot at a young age. The most important was my education. Because of the fear of them, I dropped out of high school. After many years of hospitals and dr's, many attacks and waking up to a body full of pain every day, I was constantly asking GOD why did he wake me up? I got to the point where I said I'm tired. I'm tired! I faced the attacks head on. When they came on I took deep breaths in and out quickly and told myself it was just anxiety and it would pass. After months of doing this they finally stopped coming. I was free! I had beat anxiety! So I thought...Many, many years later it came back and hit me like a train. But not in the same form. I no longer have anxiety/panic attacks but now I have severe health anxiety. Just like with the attacks, I'm tortured every single day with health anxiety (particularly my heart). I am again in constant fear. Fear of dying. Fear of sleeping. I thought it was over but I was sadly wrong. All I can do now is pray that I can find a way to overcome this. One day. One day..
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Have you considered discussing your health concerns (especially your heart) with a doctor? Level with him or her, and tell your doc you have health anxiety. The doc can give you a little perspective, and help you to see that you're a lot healthier than you think.
I've been told that I'm healthy multiple times. Most recently yesterday because I ran to a clininc and had another EKG due to palpitations. I tried but I can't find a way to accept it. Especially because of my daily palpitations.
Have you tried talk therapy for the anxiety, since you have been medically cleared by your doctor?
No I haven't.
From what you've written, I recommend that you try it. There's no shame in getting the help you need to get over this.
I just feel crazy. I think every ache or anything that feels off is something bad heart health related. No matter how little. Especially if it is anywhere in the left chest/heart area or that can have anything to do with heart issues. If I have a toothache I think it's my heart. If my ear hurts I think it's my heart. If my arm hurts I think it's my heart. If something feels off anywhere on the left side, I automatically assume it's my heart. As much as I try to run from it, I have to get help.
Please do it ASAP, and give yourself some peace.
You haven't mentioned if you are taking any medicines. If not, there are medicines that could be life-saving for you. Talk to your doctor about this.
Howard M
Right now no I don't take any meds. I may need to. Thanks.
I can relate so deeply to this. I get one cough or an itch and I need to start making arrangements. It's not fair bc we didnt ask for this. And I hope you find a treatment that works. And when you do, please tell me because I want to get better too! This sucks, but just know you arent alone. Sending positive vibes
Thank U much. If I do find a treatment, I will surely let U know. Positive vibes right back at you ☺
Losing my marbles- officially.
Having bad anxiety attacks 
Anyone else get an irrational fear that they're dying/about to die?
Terrified I have Esophagus Cancer.
Struggling to eliminate panic attacks from my life
