Closed myself completely

[MandyBueno]

It is official, i have shut myself down. Yesterday i've had enough. I cried until i fell asleep thank God rivotril and some random sleeping pills worked for me. My emotional life has been going downhill in front of my eyes. It's too much on my shoulders. For those who has been following my posts you already know i lost my grandpa recently, and on friday my co-worker called me aside Just to point out my flaws after months dealing with her non-sense and trying to go with the flow because she is simply unberable, and then the person i'm in love pulled away, my ex-boyfriend will get married this saturday ( he's caused me too many harm in the past) this year i graduate and college has been tough to me so much. I work full time and head straight to college, and i have been collecting emotions. My heart is broken and my faith is broken. I'm hopeless, all i do is sit and cry and i Wonder what is it wrong with me?. How can i be so blind to no see it?. I Just have deactivated all my social medias (which i Love to use) but i can't.

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Hello,

Sorry to read that you are going through such a bad time.

It is always hard to see a way out o times like this when everything seems to be a burden or a chore.

I see in what you have written that you will graduate from college this year. Maybe things like this that gives you goals could be a good thing? It is probably hard but if you were to concentrate on this it might lead you to a way out of what is going on in your life now. Think of the future, reach those goals that you have set for yourself and maybe then you can move on.

I hope that things will get better for you, life can be very hard sometimes but it can become good again.

[Shannon00444]

We do all get to this point. It feels like we are looking into an abysmal fall into a lifetime of darkness and madness. I’m so happy you can still cry. It means you’re still in there and haven’t given up and numbed out. Cry it out until you’re empty. Do loving and kind things for yourself to fill yourself back up. Light a candle that you think smells so good, pick yourself a flower. Understand how very strong you are to survive every bad day that feels like it was built to tear you down. I think of it like “parenting” myself. Be patient loving and understanding with yourself and guide yourself back to the sunshine!! ❤️ Hugs.

[hypercat54]

Hi sometimes all we can do is retreat into a corner and lick our wounds and this sounds like it is your time to do just that. You will come back out of it in time but don't fight it too much just concentrate on doing what you need too.

It seems like will always be like this but take it from someone who has been there more than once eventually you will start to come out of it and recover. Meanwhile just hold on and have hope. Take care. x

[Minnnie]

Sorry to hear about the demise of your grandpa. It’s very hard to live without someone knowing that you will not see them ever again but it’s inevitable and it’s not in our hands. Your co worker is harassing you it’s not a permanent thing because you can change that by switching to another job when the time is right till than keep up your spirit high and Don’t let her control your professional as well as your personal stability. You are working and going straight to your college for that you should pat your back. You should feel sorry for the girl your ex is marrying because she is marrying someone who tried to harm a girl with whom at one time he was in love with which is you. So girl you are a solid personality and don’t let these arrogant co worker and stupid ex’s destroy your inner peace because they are not worth it.