Hi! I'm new to here. The main reason I wanted to join or be a part of something like this is because I don't really have anyone I can talk to. I'm married with a beautiful daughter who is my world. My husband doesn't really get my anxiety or depression sometimes. My anxiety really gets the best of me. I'm doubtlessly second guessing myself to the point where I'm afraid to tell or say things. I'm just stuck inside my head over thinking and getting preventing me from life it seems. I get so overwhelmed with it it's like I freeze except it's that can't move, can't talk really, trying not to fall apart, sweating,shaking, and feet stuck on the ground type sometimes you know type freeze. I feel I most scared of being alone and not good enough. I want to open up to others around me, but it just seems to close. I don't want them to think I'm frail or god forbid crazy. And I don't want others to know or be judged. I love my in laws but it seems my husband shares a lot with them I'd prefer not so that could be part of why I'm hesitant with him. Sometimes I just feel like an island, like I'm stuck on an island inside my head. I've been in and out of therapy for depression and anxiety, but none of it really fit. Besides I express my self better on paper. Less stumbling over words I guess or nothing can come out wrong or is less likely too anyway. I like to listen, it's nice communicating with people who understand or get it. So that's me in a nutshell I guess.