Have you ever felt not good enough?? Or that everything around you does not make sense??? Well, that's how i feel right now. I'm fighting this war, trying to swim in this waves, the Wind is raging on. I'm in the last year of school,next year i graduate, but i'm so afraid to screw things up because of anxiety, in the morning i go to work i take one train ( 7 stations until my destitantion) and then i get a bus, i work with kids so they Drain the energy that's left for me. I want so bad to graduate, last time i had this anxieties attacks i quit my job and quit the college, then i managed to get everything back. My mom gives me strengh, she Said i need to be strong and show some skin. I am fighting but i'm tired, it is all too much for me. I started to be afraid of my own emotions, i'm afraid of what i'm capable to do.