Suicide Thoughts

[alexandraa1695]

hello how are you ? well, i have a lot to tell but i will make a resume. When i was 15 years old i try 4 times suicide, the last time i almost died. I always had psychological issues but I tryed to think that I would be better soon. But no, i’m 24 now and since 2 years ago I have daily, dark, deep suicide thoughts and I know i will do it. I live in a foreign country and I don’t have no one here to support me. I live with my boyfriend from 10 years but he don’t give a damn about me or how I feel, worst he keep trying to make me feel like I’m worthless. I lost the passion for life, I lost my personality, my happiness, joy, hope. I just think I’m to sensitive to live in such a cruel world. I just don’t want to live anymore, everyday is a pain.

[juss__because]

Alexandraa,

Just letting you know that someone is here. What do you do as a hobby?

[Robinrenae]

Hi Alexandraa, I've been having a hard time myself lately so I can relate to how your feeling. Remember those things you feel you have lost are only misplaced because of your anxiety and/or depression. Your personality is still there, your joy and passion too even though you don't feel them right now. Please seek help your your feelings of hurting yourself. You are a one of a kind.....there is only one alexandraa1695 in the entire world! You are worth it and you deserve to be happy.

Sounds like your boyfriend is a very negative person in your life, if he isn't helping you then he's hurting you and you don't need that. If you want to talk, I'm here for you. I don't know you but I care about you and I hope you find the light soon.

[alexandraa1695 in reply to Robinrenae]

Your words are priceless, is everything I need to hear. Thank you so much for being so sweet. I’m here for you too.

[HearYou]

Hello, we are here all around the world and believe me others have had thoughts like yours and they are still alive and helping others on this venue. I ask one important question of you.

Are you seriously telling us you are planning to commit suicide today? Are you needing that kind of help at this time? Or are you wanting more to talk with someone who will listen and help you get through a low a sad time at the moment?

We can do both, but talk some more please to " juss_because."...who is reaching out to you. We need your help to help you. xx

[alexandraa1695 in reply to HearYou]

Hello. I took so long because I was trying to sleep but it seems just impossible. No, I‘m not telling that I will commit suicide today, the day that I will do it I would never tell anybody. And I don’t want attention or just someone to talk because I don’t even like to talk about my problems with people. I hate to bother people with my madness. I just came here as my last resource. What I’m telling is that I have constantly suicide thoughts everyday. I imagine how should I do it to won’t cause me physical pain (so coward right?). My last thought before sleep is that I won’t live much longer and that calm down. I don’t want to live no more but I’m still here because I know that would kill my mom. Thank you so much for your reply.

[HearYou in reply to alexandraa1695]

Aleexandraa1695,

Sorry, but you can't shake me off that easily.

You joined us and now you need to give us a chance to get to know you. That's the rules. And that takes time and communication.

You have a Mom, What is she like? I miss mine.

[HearYou]

alexandraa,

Please respond to Robinrenae.

I am not able to stay on this venue continuously due to recent surgery. But I will. be checking periodically as I can.....We need you to talk to us. WE NEED YOU.xx

[Lizzizzmee]

alkexandraa1695

Hi. You have a beautiful screen name! You are beautiful. You are loved. You have a mother who loves you. You are NOT a coward. It takes so much strength to get through an hour, a day, a week. When you have these thoughts, believe that they are lying to you, because they are. You are mighty, you are fierce, you are worth more than gold. Let yourself be free of these binding chains. Try it for a minute, then add another minute, then an hour. Add a little bit a little at a time. Sure, youay take some steps back, but then you can begin again. I understand how you feel. I've had thoughts of suicide many many times. I understand. Don't act on it, please seek help in your area.

What country are you in?

You are loved, dear one. You are loved. You are strong and mighty, you are loved

[alexandraa1695 in reply to Lizzizzmee]

Hello, Lizzie. Thank you so much for your words. I’m in Switzerland and you ?

[Lizzizzmee in reply to alexandraa1695]

Hey You ! Great to get a message. I'm in the USA. How goes things? I've been struggling this week but I'm still standing. Little victories all add up.

[chhua]

Hi alexandra.. I understand your pain. Suicide is not an option dear . You are stronger than you think . You got this .

I am happy to help you and be a friend.

Your not alone in this . Don’t let your mind fool you

Your a beautiful soul. Don’t give up

[Doglover87]

Stay strong alexandra! You did the right thing by seeking help. Is there a 24 hour hotline you can call if you are feeling these suicidal thoughts? Please get help! We are all here for you!

I know you say you are in a foreign country without these resources. So I am glad you reached out. The AADA website has resources that can help you. You are not alone!

Stay in touch

[Lizzizzmee]

Hey You. 😄😄😄