Anyone care to help me? I’m sick of repeating this same cycle (becoming depressed over my ex who left my baby and I whilst his mother condones it). I’m 19 and had a good relationship with my ex until I got pregnant and the relationship went downhill. He’s young and immature and isn’t ready to be a dad, up until recently we were still sleeping together (I thought he wanted to get back together eventually but couldn’t because his mum was threatening to disown him if he does). Anyway we’ve had another explosive argument involving family and he says he doesn’t care about me or the baby and now I’m becoming depressed again.
I haven’t got over the break up nor the infidelities and so dealing with the argument is now taking a toll on me too. I know I deserve better and I shouldn’t go back but I feel like nobody understands.
He hurt me to a point I thought about suicide and now I have to pretend like it doesn’t hurt and rebuild my life with the constant reminder every time I look at our baby that I failed to keep us together.
Everybody says when he grows up he’ll come running back but it isn’t fair. I’m 19, younger than him having to deal with this all by myself while his family do not care that he isn’t there for his child because they don’t like me.
Right now I hate myself and the life I’m living because I’ve allowed the situation to take over my life, I binge eat every time I think about him as well as cry every single day. I watch motivational speeches as well as pray daily but nothing seems to be changing
I’m so sad it’s over 😢. The life I planned for the three of us, I don’t know how to get for myself. He was the only person I thought loved me and believed in me and I don’t know how to believe in or love myself anymore