Something is wrong

[Cat26538]

I’m having an extremely off day. I’m extremely stressed out tired frustrated crabby and pissed off. I’m having nightmares while being awake. I’m zoning out nonstop. Been trying not to cry all day. I really hate this. I feel like I’m not even in my own body.

[Agora1]

What's eating away at you? Sounds like your mind is going a mile a minute. Anything you like to do when feeling so stressed out. You need a break. I sympathize with how you are feeling. x

[Cat26538 in reply to Agora1]

My entire life. I like to sleep when I’m this stressed but I can’t right now. I need to get away from my family but have nowhere to go

[Agora1 in reply to Cat26538]

I'm so sorry Cat, that's a difficult position to be in when it's within your own home. I wish I had an answer for you. My escape mechanism from home issues is usually getting out of the house for a while to clear my mind or turning to meditation on YouTube. Sometimes even watching some funny videos. It's not a permanent answer by any means but just a short vacation from overwhelming stress.

When we can't change a situation then we have to change how we react to it. You need to take care of you. You're important. x

[Cat26538 in reply to Agora1]

I don’t feel important

[Cat26538]

My heart is pounding so hard. I’m shaking and really wanna hurt myself. I’m hyperventilating

[Agora1 in reply to Cat26538]

Cat, have you settled down any?? You need to slow down your breathing. You may need some help by listening to someone directing you especially when you are this upset. Go to YouTube and type in "Sinking & Slowing Breathing Meditation" by Quiet Mind Café.

Listen to it several times until your body starts responding to the suggestions in the video. xx

[Cat26538 in reply to Agora1]

Not much

[Agora1 in reply to Cat26538]

Short of popping a "chill pill" it is much better to help yourself through visualization on YouTube. There are so many choices that can really help and it's free xx Feel better Cat and stay Safe. xx

[EmLee96]

this sounds like you are trying to disassociate yourself from your body in order to deal with your stress, which is not healthy. it is a coping mechanism though, just not a good one. it is something your body does to itself to protect itself to deal with the danger or hurt it is feeling. what you said about nightmares and zoning off kind of sounds like PTSD symptoms too. it sounds like you need to make a doctor appointment asap to get you some help. i would also suggest going to see a therapist or talking to someone about what you are feeling. sometimes talking about it can help ground yourself and keep you from feeling like you are losing control.

[Cat26538 in reply to EmLee96]

I see my psychiatrist on the 30th and I see a therapist on the 24th

[EmLee96]

good! you have those days to look forward to then- take it one day at a time until the 24th and then until the 30th. after you see your therapist you should feel good to last until the 30th. if you don't feel like you can make it, have you tried calling and seeing if you can get anything bumped up? please be sure to tell your therapist and psychiatrist about these feelings- even if they are gone by the time the appointments roll around.

[Cat26538 in reply to EmLee96]

I will

[Want2BHappy3]

Unfortunately anxiety does that to you. I take it out on my boyfriend he manages to push my buttons, already feeling anxious someone challenging you pushes you over the top. have you sought counseling?