I spend a lot of time thinking about why I am the way I am. Why I’m so moody and depressed and why I think everyone thinks the worst of me at all times. I don’t trust. ANYONE, but I’m lonely, but hanging out with people feels like a chore. Why i feel like no one understands me. Why I get so paranoid about what people are saying about me. I don’t think these feelings will ever go away. I feel like I was just one of the people that was supposed to have a life that feels impossible. I also hate being so addicted to social media. I feel like i delete apps often because it aids in this cycle of oversharing but feeling embarrassed about it then deleting it then feeling a way and doing it all over again. I just feel like people think I’m crazy. There’s certain things i love about myself but certain things that i really hate and the hate overcomes the love. Thank God for this forum and therapists.