Every morning I struggle with waking up and getting out of bed.
I don't want to face the day. I just want to hide in my bed.
I've tried adding things to my routine but my anxiety and veinous insufficiency make mornings hard.
My company has a points system and I have accrued enough points for tardiness to be on the chopping block to be fired.
I feel like I can't explain what I'm going through and I don't know what to do to help myself wake up.
I feel so trapped sometimes...
Are you getting medical treatment for this?
I have been in and out of treatment since 2006. I stopped going for a bit, because I had a bad experience with a psychiatrist that kept loading me up with medications. I went back later and resumed treatment. I fell off again for like a year, but started back and I am sticking with it.
This is much too serious for you to try and handle it yourself. Please stick with medical treatment from now on. I know from experience that you might reach some dead-ends with trying meds (they don't work, the side effects are too rough, etc.), but eventually you should get one that works. I wish you all the best.
I have to get FMLA paperwork filled out and I have been having bad experiences with it because offices are not filling it out correctly. I started the process for FMLA coverage for my anxiety and depression today. I found out that it doesn't have to be in days or hours that I can use it for minutes. I'm going to my psychiatrist today with my paperwork for her to discuss with me and complete. I feel like such an idiot for not going directly to the doctor for my FMLA paperwork to make sure it's done correctly.
I appreciate the feedback back from both of you ☺️
So medical treatment has already been addressed so no more about that. Speaking from a personal experience, I relate to exhausting that amount of times it’s accepted for you to be late to the point that you’re backed to a corner. You mentioned adding things to your routine, could you please tell me more about that?(this is going somewhere I promise I just need a bit more info)
I added drinking water when I wake up to my routine. My plan was to sit up, drink water and check the weather after my alarm goes off. Instead, I hit snooze or accidentally turn off the alarm ( I got a new phone 😥). So my attempt to change things failed.
Ok, so I suggested this before to somebody but usually when I want to wake up I put the phone in a place far away from me that requires me to get up to turn off the alarm. Then while standing I automatically open my phone and check an app that I really like. You could check this app and see what people have to say in the morning. Or you could check a website (Facebook, Twitter, tumblr, Pinterest) since looking at visual images wakes your brain up a bit. Also, what I do is that I drink a small bottle of water right before I go to sleep so when I wake I gotta head to the bathroom so I just grab my phone and go. Honestly, when these things don’t work it’s not even about what I physically do but just that fact that I’m subconsciously waking up thinking “this day is going to suck and I don’t want to go”, so a little positive thought is put into perspective. Hang a cute picture on the ceiling so when you wake up it’ll be the first thing you see, or have a friend call you before work to make sure you’re going. Of course the friend thing won’t be consistent but it’ll be nice and helpful for those really bad days. You can have someone from this chat send you a good morning message if they wake up the same time as you so you can help each other to get going. You could do a lot of things but just take it easy on yourself. Don’t keep self blaming but just give yourself a break and don’t wear yourself out by “why can’t I do this right why can’t I go to work on time” etc because at this point you just need to come to terms with the fact that you are in this situation and that it’s no use questioning it, you’re getting medical help and you’ll recover so all you need to do now is just set small goals for yourself. Bear in mind that this won’t be easy and sometimes you’ll have to fight yourself to get moving but that doesn’t necessarily denote failure but only a struggle. I know it’s hard trust me I’m still struggling to wake up on time but it’ll get better so relax and get moving.
I used to keep my alarm on my vanity that was on the opposite side of my bed from where I slept, but I also had Nemo, my Papillon, then. He would pounce on me, paw me, be cute, but make it know he needed to go potty. I lost him in 2016. I adopted another dog, but he isn’t the Nemo alarm. I think that’s part of my struggle. I don’t have Nemo there to help me through my morning anxieties the way he used to. My boyfriend tries, but it gives him anxiety when I run late because of his ex lying to him. I just need a new routine so I can get through it
Everyday is a struggle
At my breaking point.
When you feel like giving up
struggle
Feeling completely lost and don’t know what to do 
