With all the signs i see it makes me think about life and how I should be living it yet I still struggle. I want to be out. I don't want to just go to work and then be in my room. I want to be outside exploring. Having fun enjoying but yet I can't seem to do it.
I have no ambition no dreams. I know it's still early for me. I just started therapy and bringing everything I kept inside to the surface. I'm starting to finally deal with what I guess I haven't wanted to deal with for so long. It feels so silly why didn't I have a back up dream. Why was that the only thing that got me excited. All these questions and I won't know the answers to. Praying that things will get better soon and I'll find some kind of direction. I want to wake up happy and with a passion for what I want to accomplish with my life. I'm just as clueless now as I was when I was 18. 20 years of my life has passed what have I accomplished.
Hugs to everyone struggling.
I'm gonna continue to walk the path and hope that over that fence lies whatever it is I'm looking for.