I did all the things I was supposed to today. I showered, makeup, dressed, and I even made my bed but I am just blue. We had Easter over the weekend, and all I can think about is all the stupid things I said. About how ugly I looked. It just plays over and over. I hate it. I just want to be pretty, smart, and successful but what I get is NONE OF THOSE THINGS.
Idk, people have real problems and I feel guilty. These feelings are dumb and shallow and pathetic.
It doesn't sound pathetic at all to me. Those thoughts sound familiar to me. But they are just thoughts. It doesn't mean they are true.
I am sorry that you are feeling this way. I am sending healing thoughts and wishing you self compassion.💚💚💚
Hi There:
What you feel in your heart of hearts is just as legitimate as what others feel in theirs. Put differently, you do not have to make any excuses regarding your own thoughts and moods. I am now a crusty old bloke, who nevertheless, has struggled with similar negative thoughts about my own identity for literally decades. Having said that, I have found that having a diary has been helpful. On its first page, there are a number of positive things that I have written about myself, about my achievements, about my family, and about my friends. What I use that list for is to reinforce my confidence when my brain box tries to bring me down. You might like to try something similar.
Finally, whatever happens, please try and always be your own best friend, because at the end of the day, feeling a sense of love about yourself is all that really matters.
Regards
t2t (tommy2toes)
Hi KindredSpirit! We all have real problems. Others problems are different but no less real. Don’t beat yourself up. It’s difficult enough for you.
You are definitely NOT stupid. Those reoccurring thoughts are part of depressed and anxiety. I am 52 and the same. But, believe it or not, the fact that you were able to get up and do all the things you did is awesome. Not joking. It is hard for some of us. It is hard for me to do all those things. Even though it doesn't feel good, I would give you a pat on the back for doing all those things. If someone had MS or cancer and they had negative thoughts, we would all say, they did great on Easter. Depression is no different. It is an illness. So when you do small things, it is a big deal.
I'm proud of you for doing all those things. Those thoughts are your brain playing tricks on you, but it's so hard to fight it. I hope you are feeling better today.
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