Starting Over

[Kitty487]

How to deal with knowing you're completely starting over with your depression, anxiety, and overall being overwhelmed? I've been trying and trying to get better and now I feel like all of my progress is getting thrown away. I'm stupid and it's so upsetting. Don't know what to do anymore. I'm not getting anywhere even with meds. Been on every med out there and nothing seems to fix anything. Going to counseling and seeing a Psychiatrist. Maybe I'm just crazy at this point.....Very discouraging.....

[Beautiful_Chaos]

I can totally relate. You literally just described what I am feeling and going through right now. It will get better. When it seems that you are at the end of your rope, tie a knot and hold on. And pray. God put you here for a reason. I tell myself this every day. Sometimes, all I do is lay in bed and cry. But, I'm alive. I'm here if you need to talk.

[Kitty487 in reply to Beautiful_Chaos]

Thank you! I hate going through this. It's a horrible feeling and I feel like it's just neverending. Like nothing is ever going to get better with my feelings. Feel better! Hopefully we will get through this..

[Kitty487]

I've been trying. But temptations keep dragging me in. Then I try different meds and none work. I'm not kidding when I say I've been on 90% of the antidepressants out there. And when they say it's going to take months to fully kick in, well... It's overwhelming. What are you supposed to do in the meantime? I end up doing stupid things to try and numb the pain. Once landed myself in the hospital. I just feel like I'm not being taken seriously enough when I say I'm at my point where I'm over depression and the outbursts and the feelings. Anxiety feels worse everyday even on anxiety meds. Depression I thought was getting better but is not. I just don't even know anymore...

[Kitty487]

I'm not a normal person though because when I can't get an answer, I do something stupid and start myself over day 1. I stopped antidepressants for a while and counseling. But my life flipped upside down and I ended up having to go to counseling and Psychiatrist and meds again. I need something stronger or something that's going to work better because honestly, I can't stand it. It is like torchure everyday and I can only take so much more of it.

[Kitty487]

I see a counselor and a Psychiatrist. I see them both next week so I'm trying to hang in there until then.