Part of me really would like to go off meds, and I do, ever so often. Does anyone just wonder after a while what is under there, under the meds?
I dont think they are helping but I don't want to make a terrible mistake.
Ive been on Zyprexa for many years. Abilify for a while. Just got on Lithium. I take Ativan sometimes and was taking Propanolol sometimes but just quit that.
I am pretty miserable. But there has been worse times.
Maybe if I went off of one at a time slowly...I am sure my doctor would not want me to. My memory is very bad but I recall med changes to be rough anyway and eventually I go back on them.
So I guess I am at a point where I want to say **** it!!!! Even though it would be scary, I am so tired of this pain. Sometimes i feel some of what I suffer from is because of the meds. I feel like I need to do something, make a drastic change...
I am irritable, angry, restless, depressed, anxious and sick of it.
So if its a bad, fleeting idea, then what?