this is a little story I have saved on my phone that I occasionally go back and read when im feeling stuck / trapped / hopeless or when I truly feel like I can't go on living the way I live. It always changes my focus, assists in changing my perspective and just makes me feel safe and okay.
ITS YOUR MINDSET
As my friend was passing the elephants, he suddenly stopped, confused by the fact that these huge creatures were being held by only a rope tied to their legs. It was obvious that the elephants could, at anytime, break away from the ropes they were tied to but for some reason, they did not. My friend saw a trainer nearby and asked why these beautiful, magnificent animals just stood there and made no attempt to get away.
"Well", he said, "when they are very young and much smaller we use the same size rope to tie them and at that age, it's enough to hold them. As they grow up, they are conditioned to believe they cannot break away. They believe the rope can still hold them, so they never try to break free." My friend was amazed. These animals could at any time break free from their bonds but because they believed they couldn't, they were stuck right where they were. The powerful and gigantic creature has limited its present abilities by the limitations of its past.
Like the elephants, how many of us go through life holding onto a belief that we cannot do something, simply because we failed at it once before?*** How many of us refuse to attempt something new and challenging because of our so called MINDSET?
Your attempt may fail, but never fail to make an attempt.
***I am in recovery for panic disorder accompanied with agoraphobia I "***"ed the third to last sentence because as much as that entire story completely resonates with me, that line is what I really need to work on. I currently am having trouble being in the now because my vision is being blurred by my past. My panic disorder developed because I started associating physical places with panic attacks based on where I was when I had one, or even what clothes I was wearing or the situation (OCD ASPECT) The first time I had a panic attack at school in elementary school I correlated school with panic and had to suffer panic attacks until I graduated high school. I got to college life was perfect until my first panic attack six weeks into class. panic attack at grocery, movies, driving, galleria, airplanes, avoided all of that until I didn't leave my house with my survival kit around me. the past is literally over. it doesn't exist anymore. this week I am going to work on not associating past experiences with what might happen, ill just try to go with it. hope this helps some of y'all!!!