Lonely confused first panic attack

[Lost1083]

Yesterday was my first panic attack it was terrifieing I honestly thought I was going to die I’ve had 5 in two days and felt silly as I called for an ambulance I’ve never had a panic attack before this I do get down some times mainly due to not having any one to talk to I have 4 children who are my life I enjoy being mum but lately I haven’t enjoyed being wife I’ve been with my husband 18 years but he’s horrible to me says horrible things and puts me down when I talk to him he just picks up his phone or walks off I don’t love him anymore I’ve begun to hate him I want him to leave but he won’t go could this be the trigger I just don’t know what’s happening to me I’m out of control I feel I’m lost and I don’t know what I’m looking for I just need help please x

[Hidden]

Are you okay? I

[Lost1083 in reply to Hidden]

I don’t know I’m just feeling really confused just like I’m floating around in space unsure of how this happened and how to stop it from happening again as I scared my children I only live for them I’m just going to fight on I guess like I always have only problem is now I can’t cover it with a smile and a yes I’m really happy I have to face myself with depression it doesn’t matter how crowded a room is you still feel like the only on in that room or worse that everyone is talking about you but you hide that but how can you hide a panic attack what if I’m out and have one thank you for responding

[Hidden in reply to Lost1083]

Your welcome. Hope you and your kids are okay. Don't worry I know how you feel. You are a strong woman don't forget that. You keep moving forward.

[Rowemonster]

Hi

I have had panic and anxiety my whole life . This week I have had the worst panic ever . Trust me it will go away. It is so hard and I completely understand how you feel . It will pass. I am in it and feel your pain.

[Lost1083]

Thank you I really appreciate your message makes me feel more positive I’ve never been so scared I honestly thought I was going to leave this world I’ve always struggled with my feelings and life but I found somethings worth fighting on for some days are bad but I put on my funny mummy face and zombie my way through thank you for your support and although I am happy I’m not alone I’m also sad that others feel the same

[Rowemonster]

I am been so bad . It takes so much just to get up and move. I have an 11 year old . She is my heart . It so hard to go through this . Hang in there . We can do this ❤️🙏