Hi, I just joined this morning. It has actually taken me several hours to get up the nerve to even say hi. For the past couple of years I have been dealing with depression and anxiety. It's a very sad and lonely existence, I have a beautiful family that I love very much. My children are all grown with families of their own and are all very busy living life. I have a wonderful husband that lives mostly alone because I spend most of my time in my room. We have meals together and watch a little TV together but that's pretty much it. I have been retired for a year and a half, and have gone downhill since. I feel as though I have completely lost who I am. The one thing I have that brings me happiness a few times a week is my youngest grandson, he is almost 3. When he is here I feel alive again and my heart is full, as soon as he leaves I can't wait to get back in my bed. I started taking anti depressants almost 2 months ago, I really don't feel any different. Just feeling lost.