Hi friends. I needed some "talk" therapy, so here I am. We found out recently that my father-in-law has advanced liver & lung cancer which is taking him quickly and he is now in hospice. It's very sad because we are in NY and he lives in AZ; we have a flight out on Wednesday and hope he makes it that long to be honest.
This has thrown me into panic/anxiety mode big time. My husband is not handling this well -if things weren't bad enough, my husband is afraid of flying, so he's not doing well either. Oddly enough, I'm not afraid of flying (I'm just afraid of life!), but the preparation and the unknown that I'm facing really has made me into a hot mess. I know I have to be there for my husband, at least for a little while in AZ. I'm not sure until I go to work tomorrow how much time they'll let me take, so that has me stressed too.
Thanks for being here for me. I feel better just writing down how I feel. My stomach is in knots and I feel the tremors come on every once in a while. This anxiety sucks big time. Worry is one thing.....but this anxiety affects me so bad physically. I'm sure there's some of you out there who suffer from the same thing.
I hope you don't mind if I ask for prayers? I believe prayer can be very powerful and I certainly could use the help right now from my Higher Power.
Thanks again for all your support. This group is just awesome and I'm so thankful I found this site. Love to all.