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Suicidal thoughts

I want to kill myself, I'm constantly stressed and always have nightmares (I don't know if it shows but I have ptsd) and not even the hotlines I've texted could be of much aid. How can I find little things to live for?

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Hi,

I used to think about suicide several times when I was depressed. I did not want to live anymore. But finally, I helped myself by thinking about my parents, my family ... ( how would they feel if I died ? ) and I thought about opportunities in life that I could have (success, good people, beautiful places that I had not been to) . That is how I overcome my hard time. Just stay strong and find help. You are not alone and you can win it!

Hope to hear your good news ❤️

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Hello, I'm glad you tried to offer a coping mechanism. The thing is though, my parents are the reason for my ptsd. I have no friends, and nobody would care if I died. I'm planning to fake my death and get to a shelter.

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Hi, I’m glad to hear from you. I understand how painful you are. Faking your death and getting to a shelter is not a good way cuz you can not fight against your pain alone. Our best medicine now is the world out there, if you don’t have friends then make friends, there are always some people who are like you and they can understand you. Why do you think nobody cares for you? I do care for you so I am talking to you, and there are many people out there really care for you. I think you need to seek for help of therapists because they can understand you and help you. And what’s about your parents? Why they are the reason for your ptsd? I think whatever the reason is, you should deal with it because it is the best way to get through this pain.

I hope that you will find your hope to get thru this. God blesses you <3

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Little things could be your favorite foods. Good music. Walking when the weather is nice. What else makes you happy? It's good to feel useful, so maybe look at volunteer opportunities. I usher at the Symphony concerts and am about to start leading walks for the local walking club.

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Omg live for yourself.. You are a miracle.. So many things to do in the world places to travel ..take baby steps shower do your hair go get an amazing cup of coffee..read a travel magazine ..there must be somewhere you want to see. You really don't want to die you just want to feel pleasure in life again and sometimes we lose site of that PS get jot chocolate instead of coffee if you don't like coffee... This feeling will pass.this feeling will pass😊

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Since I was a young girl I had thoughts of Suicide! Most days now that I’m a mother of 5 I thank god I was too chicken shit to do it!! But I still often feel like I would not be a burden to anyone any more!! It’s hard but worth it in the end! You must search and hold on to the little things!! Find joy in simple things we can control!!

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First of all you have to admit you are depressed - it is a cruel infliction - your brain is lying to you, mine does the same thing, so I am on medication - right now 6 different med's a day and I am glad to take them I want my life back. You need to be kind to yourself and patient, If you are not on med's talk to your Dr. also I have found therapy immensely helpful, and find a support group if you can. I just found one and am excited about it. Be kind and loving to yourself and do at least 1 nice thing a day for yourself. I know you Can do it. I send you love & peace. Sprinkle 1

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I went like that 2 yrs ago & if it wasn't for the support of my husband (partner @ the time), I probably wouldn't be here now as he had to call the Police SO many times & was even put under a Police section, but I came through it with his love & support despite being in hospital thanks to 2 big overdoses, had I done the 3rd, it would have been even bigger & away from where I lived!

There's always hope for all, find something to believe in & hold on to it, it can be one or many things, for me it was him & my job

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Hey guys, I’m currently doing much better. Well, not exactly but now I have this unstoppable optimism. As for my ptsd, a lot of events contributed to that such as r*pe, c@nnibalism, m*rder and ab*se. I’m not on medication right now, I can’t afford it. I went vegetarian and realized that eating meat was one of the things that triggered me. Im currently doing art therapy and playing video games to help my brain function better after my brain damage. Life is pretty good at the moment, I’ve started to become friends with the characters in games and comics and I no longer feel so lonely. I’ve been clean for a year and 6 months now!

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