I've noticed that whenever I'm coming down with a physical illness, I start to feel depressed a few days before. Yesterday I felt the "old black dog" coming around. By the end of the day it was clear to me I was coming down with something, and sure enough today I feel flu-ish and generally cruddy.
Does this happen to anyone else? No one likes being sick, but I feel depressed and then a lifting of it when I feel better.
I have some pluses in my life that I'm so happy about: receving a scholarship to a graduate program, expecting my first grandchild next spring, and an elderly mother who I cherish and am blessed to still have alive. My relationships with my siblings and daughter who I dearly love are better than they have been in a long time. Sadly, none of us live close by. The closest is my mom, who's a 7-hour round trip drive (I normally see her about every 6 weeks, though school has cut into that).
I am not without stressors. Finances are a constant worry, and recently my best friend pretty much ditched me for a relationship, despite being very upset in the past when I dated someone and didn't call her back almost immediately. It's made me question the value of the friendship when she expects so much more of me than she's willing to give. That hurts, as we've known each other for 20-some years. I miss having such a close friend.
But, until getting sick, I was dealing pretty well with these real life issues and focusing on solutions, not getting caught up in feeling low about them. I'm tempted to let my friend know how I feel, but wisdom tells me to wait until I'm more "myself" again.
Friends, could just use a little encouragement that things will get better. My meds have been working great and I've been enjoying life up until now. I feel pretty low.