I had a terrible morning. Crying feeling like I had so much pain inside of me that I wanted to just hurt. I don't know how but I made it to take a shower that was so hot it felt like it was burning my skin. And it was an amazing feeling to be honest the pain the small relief. I moved into feeling numb and now I'm at work. It's such a long day. I'm drained can't you see all I want is to be in bed.. if only it was possible.