Hi, first time here, needing help to get back up and get going once again. My life went from very happy to awful in a short period. I was with Al, my fiancee, for 3 years. Spending winter in Arizona. This year I got very sick. (Spinal strepococcal abscess) in hospital for 5 weeks. Almost didn't make it. Al was there with me, even stayed at night. The 5th week he decided he didn't want me anymore. Just never came back to the hospital. Didn't talk to me again. I needed to have iv's for 7 weeks. I kept calling him, I needed him so bad. No answer. So I had to go into the nursing home. I don't know anyone else in Arizona. Couldn't come back to Wisconsin Dr said I couldn't travel, I was too sick. Al packed all my things and went back to Wisconsin. Left me there alone. This all was in February. I finally could travel in July. In Wisconsin now. But now I have infection in the bones in my back, and have to stay with my Mom. I can't do a lot of things its to painful. Haven't talked to Al. I texted him and no answer. I miss him terribly. Im so depressed and sad, I have nothing left. When I moved in with Al he said, I am going to take care of you the rest of your life. He had me sell my home and everything in it . Everything that I loved is gone. Home, I had my salon in my home, the best place in the world. All of my furniture. Everything! My friends, we did everything with his. I am so stupid. And I have no idea why he did this. We had so many plans, for now and our future. Im retired and certainly hate to start over. I still love Al and miss him so much. My whole life is gone because I got sick. How could he do this when I needed him the most.. Just to hold me and say "everything is going to be ok." I hurt inside and out. I cry all of the time. I hate me for getting sick and for whatever I did to Al for making him not want me anymore. It cant get much worse. I'd like to run away with nowhere to go... Like most of us feel. My heart and body are broken.