Blood work yesterday and have to have another transfusion tomorrow. This will be the 4th in 2 years. The doctor said that I am just not absorbing iron. I know my diet and exercise don't help but I've been really trying this past two months, to the point of countless panic attacks. I feel like I'm dying. What's the point of this? Where will this end? How long will this take to get through? Will I get through it? I don't need words of encouragement or answers to those questions from total strangers
. I just want to not feel like a total fucking burden any more for things I can't control. Ughhhhhhhhhhhh