I'm at the point where I've given up with everything. I don't know what to do with my life. I get support from a parent to pay for my bills that will be cut in half in the spring so I have to find a job soon because we all know how health care is going to be in the new year and co-pays for my prescriptions are going to go up and if I don't have that coverage from him I'm not going to be able to afford it. I'd like to go through the marketplace but because I've been getting everything under the table per se I'm afraid of what they would ask me for as far as documentation, why not working, why I haven't been working, all this questions when I just want a break on my Healthcare. why does this have to be so hard? why do I stress about every little thing? and this past week was hell just trying to communicate with my psychiatrist. their staff used to be so nice and yes I can be high maintenance but in this field aren't you supposed to show some kind of compassion or empathy for people that are going through hard times in our lives, medication changes etc. I'm so unsure of things so I don't know what to do if I should stay with the same one I've only been with him for 2 months same with therapy I'm not sure if it's helping. I don't know what to do I'm stuck. I feel like I'm drowning and I can't catch my breath everything is so overwhelming. I have two interviews this week I don't even want to go to. I put on the weight some weight from Depakote and I'm about a size 6 which isn't terrible but trying on clothes this morning looking for an outfit for interviews was so painful and frustrating and it shouldnt be like this I should be looking forward to it. I don't get it I can't grasp why I'm feeling this way and why it won't go away it just frustrates me even more. 😥😣😓