Painful Memories

[Eflax]

Shortly after losing my long term job, I have been having such a hard time with painful childhood memories coming back to me. These are things I thought I had dealt with a long time ago.. always wanting to be near my mom, never wanting to go to school, feeling lost at a new school, my parents divorce. I used to be strong and thought these things didn't bother me anymore. I feel physically weak and don't want to leave my house or deal with responsibility. I know this has to do with loss and the loss of co-workers/family, but it so hard to get my painful memories out of my head. I don't feel strong enough to support myself and earn a living right now. I've been meditating and exercising when I can. Mostly all I want to do is be at home in bed.

Does anyone have any suggestions for coping with the bad days?

[Hidden]

Hi sorry to hear this. One thing I have learned is that you can put painful memories and emotions in boxes in your head and even lock them, but eventually they start to leak and poison your present life. The only way out is to deal with these and the best way I know to do this is through counselling.

Otherwise they will keep coming back to haunt you. x

[Eflax in reply to Hidden]

Thanks. I plan to do this soon.

[Hidden in reply to Eflax]

Good. It's not going to be easy though as you will be bringing up painful memories you tried to forget about for good reasons. Ultimately it will be worthwhile though. x