Hello. I am brand new to this group I have been searching left and right for something to get me through this dark time in my life. For 8 years me and my children's father have been on and off I may not be perfect but I tried oh man have I tried. I have my blood, sweat, and tears to this relationship and to have a family with this man. Unfortunately I just haven't been the woman he wants or needs. He never rely wanted to be around or do much with me except the same things sit on the couch and watch tv. That was about it. Dinner here and there but not much to keep us happy. He has been unfaithful for a very long time. Just recently I had left for a couple weeks because I couldn't stand how unhappy he seemed with being with me and he told me after a couple weeks he wanted to get back together and loved me I caved and gave him a list of things I needed from him (which he did not one of them) we had a court date for our daughter for child support and he asked me to lie and say we have always lived together and we're getting married. Well I did as asked because how badly I wanted it to work and 3 days after he ended it and I've been forced to pack up my belongings and move out. Today my mother helped me move everything 😢 first time in years it's back in a storage unit and I am staying with my children at my mother's. I feel like I'm on the verge of ending it all and not being here any longer. I feel lost without him and want to just give up on life. I've never In my life been so depressed where I feel like I'm in a fog. Nightmares every night. I can't shake this! I want to feel strong and move on. I just don't know how.