Misunderstood myself

[avrose90]

Every time I think I'm feeling better or I believe I'll be okay and speak with my family and see people more, I'm not and my anxiety is still through the roof. I'm a maid of honor whose barely been there for the planning of the wedding because of this, which breaks my heart. I feel I can be trying harder but I just don't and I don't know why I can't :/ I wish I had the motivation to try all the natural remedies for depression but I can barely move most days

[Hidden]

i understand how you feel. i used to feel the same way. are you taking medication and therapy?

[avrose90 in reply to Hidden]

No I am not, and I really know I should be but I don't have the strength most times. I sometimes take a xanax of a friends when the anxiety gets too intense, I know it's horrible but these panic attacks and negative thoughts are so overpowering

[Hidden in reply to avrose90]

pls see a doctor asap. you deserve to feel better. pls i insist you to see a doctor asap. you are hurting yourself by depriving yourself of treatment. dont do that. take prescribed medication and therapy and once medication starts, do meditation and deep breathing 3 times a day

[avrose90 in reply to Hidden]

Thank you so much for that, I really want this ❤️ so I'm going to make myself go

[Hidden in reply to avrose90]

yes pls push yourself to go no matter how hard it is. you will get better, dont worry. lots of love and hugs

[blossomgirl in reply to avrose90]

So overpowering and spontaneous. Boggles me as to why 😯 wish it had an off switch

[August1]

Looking at the big picture never helps. One minute at a time, take care of yourself. Acknowledge progress. Its okay that you weren't there for the wedding planning. You do your best and that will always be enough. Others may not see your efforts, but God always will. You got this