Feeling severely broken

[Ang82]

Hey, just joined looking to maybe have people to talk to sometimes. I suffer from depression, anxiety and ptsd( after 2nd childs tramatic birth) I'm a 35 yr old, single mom to 2 boys. I have been having many suicidal thoughts. In all my years with having depression, I feel like I'm at my worst. Been on Zoloft for almost 3 years now. Feeling like a pill is never going to be enough to make me ever feel normal. I tired counseling once and didn't feel it helped at all. I feel like I'm failing at life, failing my kids. They deserve so much better than me. They already have a loser father so makes me feel even more guilty when I feel like its all more than I can handle. I don't think I'm strong enough to be a single mom. I'm lost and don't know what to do anymore.

[quieturban]

I pray that you get some relief and help. I know how it feels with failure. It's a hard thing to deal with. I hope it gets better dear. I feel lost myself. Just know that you're not alone. Lots of us feel this way too. I am here if ever need to talk.

[Ang82]

Thank you guys. I'm doing a little better than I was a few days ago. I have fibromyalgia, on top of everything else I know that is making my depression worse at times. This condition has taken so much of my energy I feel like I am just getting through everything just existing and not living. I've been trying to find things that can help with my fatigue so I can do things I enjoy again. And do more with my kids. Thank you both for responding and reaching out. Means a lot 💖