Hey, just joined looking to maybe have people to talk to sometimes. I suffer from depression, anxiety and ptsd( after 2nd childs tramatic birth) I'm a 35 yr old, single mom to 2 boys. I have been having many suicidal thoughts. In all my years with having depression, I feel like I'm at my worst. Been on Zoloft for almost 3 years now. Feeling like a pill is never going to be enough to make me ever feel normal. I tired counseling once and didn't feel it helped at all. I feel like I'm failing at life, failing my kids. They deserve so much better than me. They already have a loser father so makes me feel even more guilty when I feel like its all more than I can handle. I don't think I'm strong enough to be a single mom. I'm lost and don't know what to do anymore.