New and feeling broken

[loveandlightseeker]

I just signed up for this group and not sure if anyone will see this but I’m truly willing to do anything it takes to come out of this hellish place I’m in. I’ve struggled with anxiety and depression for a few years now, starting with feeling down, avoiding social interactions etc. then I ended up in a hospital due to a panic attack from my crippling anxiety. I thought that my demanding career was to blame, that everyone there hated me,so I left my job after seven years and am now working from home. Now, I’ve been so deeply depressed and unable to control my own thoughts. It’s actually really scary because I feel like I’m being held prisoner. I didn’t choose this, I don’t want to be this way but of course thinking about how “unfair” this is makes it worse and I blame myself for letting things get this bad. I have a family who loves me and I’ve pushed them away. I have a beautiful child who inspires me daily and doesn’t deserve this. I’ve seen a counselor and recent my PCP who prescribed me Zoloft. The side effects are horrendous after only a few days. How can I get better?💗🙏

[Lily_Raven]

I am new here, I am struggle to make my life better but I don’t know how exactly yet, I have been on many different meds. I know sometimes when one starts new med they feel worse first before see improvements, usually 4-6 weeks.

[loveandlightseeker in reply to Lily_Raven]

Thank you so much! I’m at a place where I will take the meds but I don’t know if I can get through the side effect portion, you know? Is there anything that has helped you?

[Lily_Raven in reply to loveandlightseeker]

Sad slytherin suggestion of go back to doctor if they don’t ease up is good one. I had no issue with Zoloft, I went all way up to max dose.

[Hidden]

I've not taken Zoloft, but medicines can have horrible side effects. If they don't ease up, go back to your doctor and see what other options there are. You've got this.

[loveandlightseeker in reply to Hidden]

Thank you so much.

[Hidden in reply to loveandlightseeker]

No problem.

[aaronm]

I suggest trying a psychiatrist to inquire if there is a medication that will work better for you. I can't take keppra. I was laid out for a month. It was a struggle to get out of bed. I was sleeping 12 and 16 hour days.

[loveandlightseeker in reply to aaronm]

I sure hope you’re feeling better now. Can’t get into see a physiatrist until March which is very unfortunate because I really want/need to improve.

[aaronm in reply to loveandlightseeker]

That was back in February to march. I am feeling better. Can you try a different psychiatrist in the area? Private pay for 1 time? Local same day clinic?

[loveandlightseeker in reply to aaronm]

I haven’t looked outside of my current provider but that’s a great idea. Thank you!

[Ddorne]

Hi,

I have a history of depression and anxiety for many years. It comes and goes. If your side effects don’t go away ask your Dr. to change it.

I’ve tried many meds, some with bad side effects. I’ve been on Prozac for 30 years, some times I think it’s not working well. I also take norytriplene and Gabapentin.

Are you in therapy? It can really help. Try not to withdraw , I know

We tend to do that. Prayers for you. LD

[2017runner]

I feel your pain and know how it feels to push people away. I have 2 beautiful children and a husband who loves me but when I am in the darkness it doesn't mean anything. I just feel sad that they are saddled with me and my darkness and my self hatred. I know what it feels like to leave a stressful job, I used to work as a teacher but went off with stress and now I work as a teaching assistant, it makes me feel useless that I couldn't cope, that I should be able to cope. Working from home is hard when you are prone to anxiety and depression, I hope you find some peace and the side effects lessen. Sending you some love today xxx