New to forum, feeling lost and broken

[_Juniper]

Woke up this morning and realized I've hit a wall. I can't get out of bed. Called out of work even though I'm out of sick time and dangling by a thread there. My marriage is in a rough spot, though we're trying to fight for each other. I'm down to one beloved friend who's been through everything with me, but she's in a similar position with similar resources. Left a message for my Dr, but I just don't know what to do anymore. I feel so melodramatic, but at the same time this feels like a crisis. I just needed to speak this despair out loud, even to strangers on the Internet.

[litethatnevergoesout]

juniper I’m sorry. It’s a beautiful day out and I had a goal to just walk for 30 minutes today and still haven’t gotten out of bed. I’m going to get up and do the walk and you’re going to make it through the day, ok? I’m glad to hear you’re going to work on the rough patch in your marriage. hang in there.

[MarileeKemp]

This is a really great place to find support from people going through similar situations. I’m on a leave of absence from work so I understand the hanging on by a thread. Please know you aren’t alone!

[Agora1]

Welcome _Juniper, you no longer have to feel alone. This is a caring

and understanding group of virtual friends. I'm happy you are here with us xx

[Hidden]

Maybe learn from an old man. i was clueless for many years on mental illness and so were others around me. i firmly believe that there are answers medically for all of us that suffer from mental illness, just we haven't found the correct cocktail mix yet

Changing meds, docs, etc is scary. side affects are real, but if your quality of life isn't acceptable then battle. try new things. answers are somewhere. after many years a hospital found that mixture for me.

Again, for me ,all the meditation, breathing, therapy, etc etc couldn't really y make it acceptable. turns out i was under medicated for years. now those things can help make things even better

Yahoo! U2 CAN FIND YAHOO!!

[Raggedy-Ann]

Hi Juniper, welcome. I spend a lot of time in bed too. I have a job. It forces me to get out of bed, get dressed, brush my teeth, talk to people. It is part time I come home and crawl back in bed. I deliver food, nobody is watching over me, I like my clients, it is not stressful. Maybe you could discuss part time with your supervisor. I suggest marriage counseling, it is worth a try. If you are feeling unsafe and need a break look for a crisis treatment center. I've been a few times and it was helpful. Meds are important so be diligent about getting some. I am around if you want to chat.

[Chanelbaron]

Hold on and be kind to yourself. Talk to a clergyman or woman or a hotline. Get outside and try a short walk. Breathing no exercises or just deep breathing.

[Hidden]

Been right where you are. I am sorry, it is very difficult. Suggest see a psychologist or psychiatrst they can prescribe something. You can do face time appts. In meantime see your doctor. And... take 1 minute at time. Just 1 minute. I know it hard.

[Hidden]

Hello Juniper I totally understand. I wish you happiness. Each day I have to remind myself that I’m here for a reason. And I believe you are too! And remember you are not alone. ❤️

[catsrock]

I'm very sorry. I hope you hear from your doc soon and get some relief.

[bubbamgoo]

There is allot that you can do! When I focus on the question "do I feel like doing this?', the answer is sometimes yes, but allot of times no. In those moments, I set aside what I feel, and I just do it! You want to do something constructive, and beneficial for yourself. The more I fixate or struggle with my depression, the more I feel depressed. There are times when I accept that I will be depressed. I do my best to not struggle with depression. When we ruminate over our problems, this keeps our focus on the problem but not solutions. We want our focus on solutions. There are problems we can resolve and others that out of our control. Don't drive yourself into depression, while trying to fix an unresolvable problem, that we have no control over. Our focus needs to be on what we can control and resolve. We have to learn on what we control over or can't control or fix. I hope this helps a little or allot. Take care of yourself.

[raisin44]

I understand what you are feeling. I suffer from major depression daily. It is disabling. I got a divorce in December and I just can’t get over it. My dr has been trying different medications (which take 6 to 8 weeks to see if they are going to work) but nothing is working yet. I have been trying different medications since March. I am so depressed and lonely. Trouble sleeping, sad, upset stomach, tired, don’t want to go anywhere or do anything, nervous. So many emotions, crying. I pray it ends soon. This is not a good way of life. We have to fight for ourselves. Good luck to you.

[SayNOtoPanic in reply to raisin44]

Stay strong raisin. Good vibes up for you.

[SayNOtoPanic]

Hang in there dear. You called out of work, it’s ok. But maybe get up even if in your pj or house clothes and try to take a five minute walk. Just listen to the sounds you hear while walking and the sights and identify the stuff. How the sky looks what you smell or hear. It’s so tough but if you can do even that to give yourself a break from thinking and just sitting in the struggle. You got this. Venting is great too. Glad you shared. Lifting you in prayer.

[SsgCulldelight]

1st, Fear nothing and believe in your Own divine power to heal and be Free. Know that no power outside yourself can save You, You are the power you seek, meditate, drink lots of real water, and rest at least 8 hours in the night.

[Mr_Goody]

I've been where you are a few times. In a crisis and feeling like I can't handle things and it is overwhelming. I just keep thinking this will pass. Do what you can each day. Go day by day improving the situation a little at a time. Just keep thinking this will pass. It worked for me.