Hi I'm Nomi 21 I've had schizophrenia(I guess because I never had a checkup) since childhood. I faced child abuse by my father and bullied by people because I was different my mother is depressed because of her bad relation with father so she couldn't do anything about me. I suffered with major depression anxiety and suicidal thoughts all my teenage. I started taking tofranil and quetiapine as prescribed and xanax as needed and I got a lot better. Now i face social anxiety and I avoid daily activity because I get confused among people and I feel pressurized. I don't know what kind of help I need. I stay home and feel alone I lost everything and everyone plus I have an addiction to happy and lovely girls . I feel so good and I just wanna talk to them all the time. At normal situation idk what and how to say so I stay quiet. I hope someone would understand me and help me by giving some advice I know I couldn't explain well.