well what is there to say.... today is just another day that i wish i could just close my self in a closet and be there the rest of my life. NO one understands. I try to just pretend but even that just makes it worst. i cry all day , when im driving and i hide while my husband drive pretending to sneeze. he will just yell at me (what is your damn problem!) say o that shit again! Im isolated in his families house who dont understand english they speak another language. I cant have friend cause my husband is insecure. (i met him that way I thought it would change.) i cant go any where while he sleep he work overnight mostly sleep all day. I just had my fourth child in april. Some please tell me im not crazy. My husband keep saying the devil is in me. I dont want to do any thing but sleep and cry away from everbody. i think about taking my life but never my kids need me. That is what keep me here. If i died no one will help them cause no one helped me. My parent died when i was really your. My father passed right after i had my first child(23 days after) . i feel so much just sadness anger and lonley all at the same time i just wannt to scream, yell cry brake thing . some one pls help. talk listen anything.