I'm done.

[Marie1995]

I really don't think I have felt so much self hate and pain. I don't care anymore. I don't want to live. I don't want to be here. I don't want to feel anything. I'm laying in bed crying at a whole new low. I just punched my bed so much and slapped my face until it felt numb. I don't think I can ever make anyone in my life understand what I'm feeling or going through. I just don't want to be alive anymore. I don't want to feel anything ever again. Nothing.

[LMMW]

Marie - I know how you feel. Please don't hurt yourself. It's not the answer, things will get better- I promise. Please PM me if you would like to talk. I care

[arinadh]

My dear Marrie...

I'm sorry for what happened to you. Before you hurt yourself, I ask you to think for a moment.

1. Think about your relationship with God. Nearly 100% of depression cases are caused by weak faith in God. After you evaluate this, I suggest you to read more scripture, give more charity, etc. Just do righteous deeds more than before.

2. Is that the worse case? Is there anyone who has gone through more difficulty than you? Are you dying and hungry, like those people in Gaza and Syria, who can't even help themselves?

I don't know what exactly your problem is, but I'll teach you a spell to make you feel better:

"At least..."

You can't feel grateful and depressed at the same time. That's just impossible

* Oh, and I know some cool quotes:

“Sometimes life knocks you on your ass... get up, get up, get up!!! Happiness is not the absence of problems, it's the ability to deal with them.”

― Steve Maraboli, Life, the Truth, and Being Free

“True forgiveness is when you can say, "Thank you for that experience.”

― Oprah Winfrey

“When one has a grateful heart, life is so beautiful.”

― Roy T. Bennett, The Light in the Heart

If you need someone to talk to, you can message me. If you need some cheesy jokes, that's my specialty

I know you can deal with it, Marrie. I believe in you.

[Hidden in reply to arinadh]

Depression is not caused by 'weak faith in God' but by a combination of nature versus nurture and sometime it is completely random with no discernible reason for it. I am not knocking religion and if you are a believer then fine but lots of people aren't and never will be. Pushing God on those who aren't a believer is useless.

Also telling people that there are others much worse off make them feel even worse! The way to help people is to encourage them to seek treatment whether medical or the self help route and building them up by telling them they are strong and can do this. You need to boost their self confidence and encourge them to talk about how they feel, and let them know they are not alone.

[arinadh in reply to Hidden]

Hi, Lila!

I appreciate your opinion. That's fine if she is not a believer though, I just want to make point that she has to have something she can hold on to. If your feet are hurting, and you're too hurt to walk, you need crutches. I want her to find her crutches (I know this is a stupid analogy, but...)

And you know, to have faith in God, the All-Powerful Almighty God, is the easiest crutches you can think of.

Telling people that there are others much worse off make them feel even worse?

No, I think it'll make them feel more grateful

You have to admit that gratitude is the best way to overcome depression. When you see through sunglasses, you'll only see darkness.

When you see people have less than you, you'll see how blessed you are.

It's about paradigm...philosophy.

Have a wonderful day!

[Hidden]

Hey there. I don't know if it helps but I'm in a similar situation / thought pattern. Every day I just sit in my room having negative thoughts about myself, convincing myself that I am the worst in many different ways and it won't stop. Even when other people try and help / think they understand, they really do not. Only those suffering from this will know what it is truly like in some form. The one thing that is true is that it gets better, it gets worse but it also gets better. And the more times you practice certain thinking / behavioural techniques, it pushes through those boundaries that were once impossible to get through. I've been trying this for a couple years through CBT and i'm still struggling, even when you think you have got it right, it will fall back and that's okay. Accept these thoughts and downfalls, that's part of recovery. Give yourself space to reflect, then distract yourself with any task even if it seems mundane, or something that you think you can manage or enjoy. Keep practicing changing your thoughts and realising they are only illusions of your inner self. You are worth so much more than the negative thoughts in your head. Accept and then try again, take a break, cry as much as you can, or if you can't cry, try screaming into pillows, throwing pillows, try not to self-harm, find healthy forms of release if you can. If I can change my thoughts then you sure as hell can too my friend

Much Love

[Hope201]

Dear Marie,

Something that helped me a lot when I was experiencing everything you mentioned was this statement:

"Negative thoughts are not from God, but it's from satan whose goal is destruction. When those destructive thoughts attack you, get up and open a door/window and say get out of my life, you have no authority over me because I'm child of God."

Stay strong ... surround yourself with positive people. Believe me ... you must have a talent/gift that satan is afraid you'll use it to help other people and he doesn't want that to happen so he attacks you with destructive thoughts to paralyze you.

[Meeasy]

Don't choose a long-term solution for a temporary problem. This too will pass. Watch this video. It brings me hope when I'm stuck. Good luck

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