Feeling hopeless.

[Lizanimal]

Last week I started therapy again. It was hard to make the appointment and terribly uncomfortable to talk about what has been going on. Near the end of the appointment my therapist tells me she will not be available for the next couple of months and that I can make an appointment with someone else. I feel so defeated! All that trouble and now I have to meet with someone new?! I also told her how often I am suicidal and it doesn't even matter because I have no body to talk to/ no body ever believes how bad I feel inside and I just don't know why nobody takes me seriously. My life will never improve! I have dealt with anxiety and panic attacks since I was a small child and depression since I was 13 and things have only gotten worse to the point where I am unemployed and my relationship is suffering badly and nothing I do helps.

[roise_]

if your therapist didn't care that you were suicidal then it might have been for the best to start with a new therapist. the fact that you are looking for help means that you still believe that there is hope , stay strong

[Lizanimal in reply to roise_]

It's not that she didn't care, just the circumstances make it so that she can't see me more frequently. I'm only doing therapy because other people want me to, I don't believe anything will ever change or get better.

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