Hi! My name is Dan, I'm a 39 year old male who suffers from BDD (body dysmorphic disorder), OCD (mainly thoughts and mirror checking), stress and all kinds of anxiety disorders. I was originally diagnosed with BDD, OCD and major depression when I was 16. I noticed I started needing everything to be perfect. My hair, my face, mostly body wise but most other things in life as well. If I got a zit or cold sore I wouldn't leave the house and that still holds true to this day.
I am married with no kids and my social life is pretty much non existent, I avoid get togethers at all cost. When I know I have an event, the rare vacation or holiday coming up, I stress for weeks in advance about getting a zit or just being in the social setting. Most recently I was diagnosed with a condition called pityrosporum folliculitis which basically causes my hair follicles to get trapped under my skin and become inflamed giving the resemblance of really bad acne type cysts. This of all places has happened on my forehead and I've tried all kinds of treatment through a dermatologist with very little luck.
I can't work due to my mental and physical disabilities. I had a job 5 years ago and was nearly killed, some days wish I was, in an accident that occurred at work while I was working on a man lift 27 ft high. The man lift was struck by an overhead crane in the shipping and receiving bay I was working in, resulting in the man lift being knocked to the ground with me in it. I broke my back and it has lead to 2 spinal fusions over a 4 yr period. The 1st one didn't work so I recently had to go back in for a revision.
A lot of days I don't feel like getting out of bed, some day I don't due to the physical pain and mental torture as call it when I have a zit or blemish on my face. I feel BEYOND horrible that my wife and family have to deal with the ramifications of my issues. I've tried all kinds of treatments off and on since age 16. I've always been on an anti depressant and have tried cognitive and behavioral therapies with little to no luck. I even checked myself into a day program back in 2013 but it didnt help at all. I feel like there is NO help for me leaving me obviously feeling hopeless. I truly don't know what to do or where to go from here!!