This month marks one year of trying different medications to get my anxiety and depression under control so I can function in society (I can't hold a job). Well, here I am sitting in my room crying because yet another medication has done nothing for me. Over the course of one year I have gone through easily eight different medications (both for anxiety and depression) yet here I am with no progress. Because medication hasn't been doing much, I have also been seeing a therapist that honestly doesn't do much either. Sure, its nice to have someone listen to my struggles but really, its just a human that sits there and listens. I also have started group therapy and SURPRISE that doesn't do much else for me besides help me to not feel as alone.
You see, I do everything right... I've been exploring medications, I go to two types of therapy, I even exercise and try to go out in nature daily. Yet, here I am... right where I started. Crying because I am severely depressed and shaking from uncontrollable anxiety.
I have put so much time, energy, and money into this illness and I have nothing to show for it. I feel like I have wasted an entire year of my life struggling through these medications to find not a single one that does any good for me. I feel like nothing in this word can help me.