I'm screaming for help

This month marks one year of trying different medications to get my anxiety and depression under control so I can function in society (I can't hold a job). Well, here I am sitting in my room crying because yet another medication has done nothing for me. Over the course of one year I have gone through easily eight different medications (both for anxiety and depression) yet here I am with no progress. Because medication hasn't been doing much, I have also been seeing a therapist that honestly doesn't do much either. Sure, its nice to have someone listen to my struggles but really, its just a human that sits there and listens. I also have started group therapy and SURPRISE that doesn't do much else for me besides help me to not feel as alone.

You see, I do everything right... I've been exploring medications, I go to two types of therapy, I even exercise and try to go out in nature daily. Yet, here I am... right where I started. Crying because I am severely depressed and shaking from uncontrollable anxiety.

I have put so much time, energy, and money into this illness and I have nothing to show for it. I feel like I have wasted an entire year of my life struggling through these medications to find not a single one that does any good for me. I feel like nothing in this word can help me.

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  • Sorry Desiree, that's a tough place to be. I wish I had the answer for you, but I've been working to manage a similar experience. Look forward to hearing from others to see if someone has some sage advice for us.

  • I'm so sorry to hear you're experiencing similar. On the bright side, at least we are not giving up and we are actively trying. I guess that's really all you can do at this point... is to just keep trying.

  • Also on the bright side, you are an inspiration to the rest of us for the fact that you keep trying. I think something will click for you, and then it will all be worth it.

  • Thank you so much for your kind words! I hope something clicks soon.

  • I'm in the same place. I can't hold a job or even get off my butt to get one because the anxiety cripples me. I only tried one antidepressant and completely hated it so I'm trying desperately to treat myself without it. It's okay to feel weak but you are very very strong! As for your therapy my therapist takes a different approach which I questioned at first but is working little by little. She really works with me to find the underlying cause to my problems but then also teaches me to look at my feelings and thoughts without judgment. I go to a center where they focus on things like meditation and what not. I thought there was no way this could work for me but to my surprise it's doing something so I highly recommend looking into meditation if you haven't already. I'm going through the same thing as you and hope we can work through some things together.

  • It's the most frustrating thing to not be able to hold a job but I'm very happy you have found something that is helping you. I always heard meditation is great for anxiety, I just haven't had the opportunity to try it yet.

  • It is very frustrating and not being able to make money can set the anxiety off even more. I go on YouTube and look up guided meditation and mindfulness meditations they work really well and it's easier to meditate when someone walks you through it. Some of the people's voices are either hilarious or irritating but still helpful nonetheless!

  • Have you tried citalopram thats what im on and it seems to be working for me they had to increase the dosage a couple of times but i like tge affects it gives me

  • I have not tried that. My doctor just upped my dosage on the four medications I'm currently taking. I'm hoping that does something for me.

  • how are you doing today?

  • I'm doing a bit better. I went back to my psychiatrist and got my medication altered. Every time we change my medication I get a little hopeful that it'll work this time. I guess we'll see soon if these changes have worked. The only downside is I have extreme fatigue and feel as though I can't even lift my arms. I slept 14 hours the past 2 days.

  • I understand how you feel, been doing the same thing as you for over a year and I can't seem to get anywhere. Hopefully it will ease up and you'll be on that yellow brick road, I wish I was but my psychiatrist does not know what else to try.

  • I never felt like a psychiatrist did more than just prescribe medications, which has a definite place in treatment. A psychotherapist has helping me figure out how to channel my coping abilities by learning to dismiss negative thoughts and replace them with positives. It is really difficult but has helped me. It is hard work. It is so much easier to think negatively than it is positively.

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