I'm new on here and I'm not even sure if it's going to help. I'm only 19. And I wake up everyday feeling suffocated by my anxiety and depression. I used to cry a lot about it. But now I'm numb. I feel like I'm constantly trying and trying to be better. To find things that make my anxiety and depression feel less abundant. I try to talk to my friends, my boyfriend, my family. I try to figure out what's wrong with me. I ask them and myself everyday why I am the way I am. My mom thinks I should talk to a doctor. I'm not sure what happens from there. So I haven't reached out. Because I feel like it's so much work for something that may not help. I feel convinced by others that I'm the reason I'm so depressed and so anxious all the time. I'm lost and I dont know if I'll ever be found.. I've been like this since I was 13. At that age you think it's just a teenage phase and it will go away. It's been 6 years and it hasn't faded, it's gotten worse. I'm feeling more hope less than ever.