I don't know where to start, but I can't do it by myself anymore. I have given myself roughly a year and half to find some type of coping to keep moving forward in my life. That is when my youngest son will be 18 and I wont be as needed. I have PTSD and sever Anxiety along with many physical medical problems. I have been denied for ssi/disability because I am unable to get my words out to describe my issues correctly and had a bad judge. I have truly no hope left in my life. I live with chronic pain along with ptsd and anxiety and have no one to talk to, no friends. I have to keep everything on the inside around my family as I already feel I have disappointed them. And don't want to any further. I am 37 years old. And the only reason I get up is for my 2 son's. My story is long and I know so many more have so much going on in their lifes that I feel I am just not worth being another sad person. I have so much hurt inside I don't know where to begin. I do go to therapy and have been since 2014 and nothing has changed but is all getting worse. I am truly don't know what to write right now.