I wanted to connect with people who go through similar things. My anxiety has been really bad lately and I feel like I am a prisoner of my own thoughts. I feel as, I do not deserve to be loved and I don't allow anyone to see what a wonderful and funny person I am. I shut down and rather not talk to people, I feel like they judge me all the time and I am less then them. It's such a paralyzing feeling. I have so many irrational thoughts, like nobody loves me and that is clearly not true, but I just can't brake free of these thoughts. I know it's anxiety but I do not know how severe it is. Sometimes I cry uncontrollably. However I do many things that I am proud of myself for. Although, I have been in such a bad mood lately, I just want to hide, I feel like the world is closing in on me. I've been thinking about going for therapy and I do not wish to take any medication. I'm just trying to find ways to ease this pain and discomfort that I am feeling inside. Any thoughts or suggestions? Thank you for reading this!