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Lunazay
Lunazay

If you had the time to read this then reply please

I have fibromyalgia. My sister just told me it is cause by high emotional stress like severe depression and anxiety or a psychological traumatic event. I didn't know that. She doesn't know I face this emotional stress though. For as long as I can remember I've been down. I don't know how it feels like to smile or be hapoy. I live in a deep hole called rock bottom and I don't know how to climb up. I have my first therapy appointment in two days but why do I feel like even that won't help and I will stay in this feeling forever. Their is no reason for me to be sad but I am. School life is good and I have parents and siblings. But why am I always down for no such reason. I want to leAve this place called a world but I also don't want to die. I don't know what to do. I am stuck in the middle.

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You don’t need a reason to be sad

Mental illnesses need to be treated as such. You can’t always control it. Being depressed isn’t just a “feeling” like being sad or down. I hope treatment helps you manage your depression and you start to experience joy in your life. 🖤

Hi first of I am truly sorry you're going through this and second I can not only sympathise but empathize as so am I. I, and no offense to your sister, hate when people that aren't in our shoes have the same answer: oh it's because of stress and blah blah blah. Well yes stress does flare it up but that is not the root of the problem. Unfortunately there is no answer and I TRULY wish there was. I can't tell you how many times and ways I've tried to explain to my family how I felt that now its gotten to the point I just paste a fake smile on and go on with the day. It's miserable and just like you I wish I can check out but I can't bear to break my girls hearts. That's why I'm here hoping maybe this group thing will help since nothing since seems to 😞. Anyways I'm sorry to sound horrible but I just wanted to let you know, you're not alone.

Sunshine425
Sunshine425 in reply to NaviM

We are all in this together☀️ that is the one thing that kept me going... is knowing I could recieve support and connect with people who understood. You may think your response was negative. But it actually sent a positive messege🙂

NaviM
NaviM in reply to Sunshine425

Thanks. It truly is hard 😞

Sunshine425
Sunshine425 in reply to NaviM

Yes it is so hard! For example...My anxiety spiked tonight due to others pushing buttons and trying to weasle their way into what was supposed to be my laundry/relaxing night. I was ready to curl up and cry. But I remembered it can only hurt me and stress me if I let it.

NaviM
NaviM in reply to Sunshine425

Wow that's so mean! Why can't they see how much we hurt?! Is it really that hard to say "Hey let ME get that" or better just do it. My house is so full of hostility, it's just a time bomb waiting to explode. I usually keep my tears inside but right now my cup is BEYOND full, so I know exactly what you mean. I just want to crawl in a hole and die of tears 😞

Sunshine425
Sunshine425 in reply to NaviM

Im very fortunate my fiancè is very supportive of my mental illness. Its the constant family drama we have in our lives and no one able to have respect. Msg me anytime, my page is always open💕

NaviM
NaviM in reply to Sunshine425

Yes you're very lucky, that's awesome and am truly happy for you that you at least have that rock. My husband used to be, but I personally think he doesn't know how to help so he kind of just gave up 😞

Tyvm I'll definitely reach out and same here. Just forgive my delay response. I don't know how to activate the alerts, already turned everything on, but I don't see anything unless I open the page.

Sunshine425
Sunshine425 in reply to NaviM

No prob, I have to constantly refresh my page.

Hold on to hope. You joined this site and started therapy. Your taking big steps! Congrats! Youve just begun an amazing healing journey. Feel proud that you are taking care of yourself. Youll get there. It took me a long time to learn coping skills, but in this life... anything is possible. Even if it doesnt feel like it right now. That is depression keeping you down. You can rise above any storm⛈🦅

Therapy is a good first step. Although, it takes time. Just because you go once does not mean everything will be okay after. I made the mistake of thinking this and in return I felt great right after talking to my therapist, but suffered a day later because I felt that it was a temporary fix. Try finding a new hobby. Yoga really helped me. So did writing. I write everything down all the time. The good and the bad. It won't be like this forever, I promise. It just takes time and consistency to find your happy place. Once you find it, you will be more aware and able to get yourself out of the dark hole you feel that you are in. It won't be easy, it's always work, but you will be so proud of yourself when you reflect back on your growth. I'm working on my growth and awareness. You aren't alone. <3 keep persevering, you are taking all the right steps.

I feel very similar. As far as I can remember, I have always had depression in my life. But as an adult, and most recently, life has been extremely stressful and I feel like I’m just going through the motions of surviving life. My body aches every single day as if I did a hardcore work out and it makes me feel so tired and miserable. I watch other people my age going out and having fun constantly and all I want to do is go home and rest because my body hurts so much. It’s so extremely depressing. I’ve had therapy on and off in my life and I feel like it only helps when you yourself decide to make a change. It’s really hard because you have to force your brain to think differently. So many people without depression and anxiety just don’t get it. Therapy can help if you find the right therapist. This group is probably also the best place I’ve found because so far everyone is so great and understands and offers good advice.

I wanted to offer my private messeging to you as well. I just joined this site a month before you. Hope you had a good day!

Try cognitive therapy. Retrain your thoughts. Therapy does help....

Omg I completely understand how you feel. I don’t feel like that constantly, but when I have episodes that is exactly how I feel, stuck! I want out but I don’t want to die so I am in the middle not knowing where the heck to go or do.

I believe Having anxiety or depression is a sickness. We probably have an imbalance of some sort in our brain, nervous system issues, neurological, something. It’s not an emotional problem, it is more than that, it’s an actual sickness. If someone has cancer we are compassionate, we understand that that person did not choose to be that way, we also understand that that person can’t just snap of it because we get that is a sickness that we can’t control, we can just get treated, get help and hope for the best outcome. This is like that! And I hate that people don’t understand that. I am not f**king weak, I didn’t choose this, this is a disorder, a sickness and I can’t just snap out of it!!

Knowing that helps me be more assertive, this is how I explain it to people now because I need their help and so I need them to get it. I have even waited for people to get sick to make my point. A family memeber once got the flu and I actually told him “omg you might have been so stressed this is probably why you got this, just control it, I don’t know why you let yourself get the flu, think of all those times when you were healthy and just snap of it”... is that helping your flu??? Do you think you can control it easy and just get rid of it? No? Ok well that is exactly how I feel when I am havin an anxiety attack!

Anyway honey, that’s my two

Cents for you today. I’m here, we are here, we get you.

I am glad you are starting therapy, that can help, I think if you get the right therapist. I also know it’s not magic, it takes a few sessions. Good luck to you and please keep me updated if you can.

Sorry you are feeling sad and depressed. We get it! The first step to getting out of the "pit" is admitting you are in one!! So, we are sooo glad you are posting!

Practicing gratitude and taking care of ourselves physically, emotionally, and spiritually are good second steps. Journaling, exercise, sleep, good nutrition, praying, Bible studies, and talking to trusted and loving friends and counselors have been helpful for me. What do you think your second steps should be?

Praying for you today, and please know you are not alone. Hang in there! There is HOPE!

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