Its been about a week and im goung down hill. I dont even know where to begin. I cant fall asleep. I cant eat even though 8m a fat disgusting pig. I feel worthless and mostly just keep wishing id fall asleep and never wake up. I know tomorrow is a new day and that i just might feel better but right now i just want to be dead. I hate the idea of lying next to my husband who wont fuck me unless i beg bc he has low t. He cant get me pregnant and now i might lose my workers compensation benefits bc im finally working pt.