I have a really hard time keeping friends and don't have any of the same friends I had growing up. Besides this, or maybe because of this (?), I attach to people disturbingly fast. As soon as I'm that person's friend I tell them about my mental illnesses and life struggles and my happiness hinges souly on that one person. I've never had more than one friend who actually cares for how I feel and I'm actually a relatively reserved person but once someone shows compassion I'm never leaving their side. They need to be with me every where I go, or else I don't feel safe. I've never been in a romantic relationship (I'm not looking for one but I'm also scared to have one) and I really can't tell the difference between my romantic feelings and just me caring for my friends. It's extremely stressful and I'm just not sure what to do.