I have an intense (non-romantic, non-sexual) obsession with my therapist. When I researched this online, I learned about transference and how this is a regular occurrence in the patient-therapist relationship. Many of the articles I read encouraged talking to your therapist about this, but that seems like it would be mortifying. I absolutely adore my therapist - she is kind and compassionate and has helped me through so much. When I'm not with her, I constantly daydream about being friends with her. I have imaginary conversations with her in my head constantly. I have extensively looked her up on the internet and social media and know everything I can about her. This all makes me feel weird and stalkerish, but I would never do anything weird or nefarious with this information. It just makes me feel closer to her to know as much about her as possible.
Does anyone have any advice on this? Have you experienced this and if so, did you tell your therapist about it? I'm afraid to talk to her about it because I don't want to freak her out. I've been seeing her for a couple of years and she has really helped me. I'm terrified of losing this relationship we have built, but I also feel like these types of intense feelings are worth discussing.