I had my first full blown panic attack last night. It really scared me, and I felt embarrassed. Thankfully I was home, but my friend was over and we'd had some sort of disagreement or argument, and it emotionally/physically spiralled out of control for me. I felt horrible, and the amount of mental and physical noise I experienced was overwhelming. I scared my friend, I scared myself, and I felt such a sense of loss. What happened makes me feel worse about myself because I sought out the help of a counselor almost two years ago now, i was deeply depressed, and thought I'd better by now, or at the very least have a better handle on things. I'm trying to remain positive and listen to my body and what i need, but it feels like such a challenge. I wanted to speak to a community that understands and could help me feel not so isolated. I just signed up today, recognizing I needed more support. Thank you.