Need some support

[pinkpanda18]

Hey y'all I am new here. I am looking for some support. I have struggled with severe depression for a long time and before COVID hit I felt I had a handle on it, but being in isolation and not helping others has left me feeling empty. I don't feel motivated to do my job to my fullest extent, I am having issues with my mental health in terms of how people see me, and I feel exhausted 80% of the time. I just need some support to help find motivation to move forward.

[Brooke_L]

I know EXACTLY how you feel. I am struggling with so many different emotions right now, I have contemplated just ending it all. But I took a step back and realized, my daughter is depending on me for everything..for encouragement, for guidance, for a strong woman to look up to. When I look at her, my problems do not go away.. but its the only thing that gets me out of bed in the morning. The only hope I have left is my daughter and making sure that her life is great. My point is, maybe you need to find that something that inspires you or at least gets you out of bed. You said you have no one to help.. but maybe you can find someone who needs help more than yourself.. maybe you could help out at a food kitchen, or a food donation place, or even just somewhere that people could use your help.

Personally, something I also do when I’m feeling low is I like to go on here and read other people’s stories. I like to give others encouragement even if I can’t encourage myself, because sometimes you just need to help others in order to make yourself feel good.

Idk, I hope this helps !! I’m always here for yah!! ✌🏼💛

[pinkpanda18 in reply to Brooke_L]

It sure does help! I don't have children, but I work with children. They need to see somebody that they can look up to and sometimes I feel like I let them down because I can't get my own emotions straight. I will look into different ways I can help people. Even something small can help somebody else.

[Brooke_L in reply to pinkpanda18]

I always feel like I am letting my daughter down as well. But then you look at these people who are extremely shitty parents and their kids still love them. Kids love you no matter what. They don’t see life in the way that we as adults do. They love simple things. So maybe just watching them play or just interacting with other kids you can see the joy they find in all the little things. I wish that as adults we could do the same.but maybe instead of focusing on you disappointing them you can focus on seeing them happy and living their absolute best lives, maybe that will spark something within you!! If that makes sense ?

[pinkpanda18 in reply to Brooke_L]

it sure does! thank you!

[pinkpanda18]

We have been in isolation for 2 weeks because my boss has tested positive for COVID. Today is my first day back at the office so it's been a struggle to come in this morning.

[marsdream]

These are trying times. Everyone feels the struggles of the changes and challenges that the country has gone through. You need to know that you aren't alone in how you feel. Move forward and keep attending counseling if you're not already. You are worth it! You may feel like you can't help others but look creatively at ways to help other people. I know that Christmas is in December, but Operation Christmas child is a way to help children who need a small gift to be sent overseas. Look at ways that you can help teachers with school supplies since school has opened up. Don't give up!

[sunandbutterfly]

So sorry to hear of the struggles that you are facing. Isolation is definitely difficult, but you made it through the quarantine period.

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I am glad that you have the kids to look forward to working with. They definitely need people that they can look up to and admire, and even if you have your struggles you can have a positive impact on others. It should not be hard to find volunteer opportunities in your area even with the restrictions in place. It could even mean making a meal for a neighbor, dropping a letter in the mail, or connecting with a local church to see if you can help. (Operation Christmas Child is one that they may be able to connect you with.)

You mentioned that you have had struggles in the past. In addition to helping others, was there anything that helped you in the past? Did you have an established relationship with a counselor? If so, would it be helpful to talk to them again?