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So I went to the emergency almost 2 weeks ago to get my celexa refilled and after 4 months of being on that and lorazepam about 2 months before that I now have to wean off the celexa the doctor told me that there are no pills to help anxiety and every doc I see say try this then try that so every pill I get put on they wean me off I feel like there's nothing for me and like I'm just crazy and now I'm going through mood swings and depression from weaning off my pills I just don't know how to handle it all and I feel bad because I've been very short with my partner and he definitely doesn't deserve it.

[BonnieSue]

I'm sorry that there seems to be confusion about how to handle your medicine. It makes no sense that you keep having to stop your medicine but I'm guessing it's because you get different doctors by coming to the emergency room instead of seeing the same doctor in one practice. Can you manage to see just 1 doctor? That way you have some continuity of care and not all this shuffling of medications.

The doctor that said there are no pills for anxiety was clearly wrong. Let's just disregard that statement now, and make the commitment that you won't accept treatment from that one. There are several anti-anxiety meds and many more useful ones called antidepressants. You simply need to be left on 1 antidepressant and have it tweaked to be at the right dose for you.

And by all means explain this to your partner and try to make it up to him and do something special in appreciation for him and his understanding and patience.

[Hidden in reply to BonnieSue]

Yes I explained everything to him and were good now also I don't have a family doctor I've been on several waiting lists for almost a year now so hoping to have one soon

[BonnieSue in reply to Hidden]

That's a sad way to try to take care of your health! Where do they expect you to go if you need medical help? It's been a mess for you to go to the emergency dept!! No doctor allows you to stay on one drug and get to an appropriate dose so you can enjoy freedom from depression and mood swings. This is crazy!! Can you possibly ask to see the same doctor every time? That would help you very much. Or I should say it SHOULD help you if you're seeing providers of any value.

What if you went on a waiting list for a psychiatrist? Would that get you a doctor sooner? How about a counselor? That would be a big help for you and the counselor can recommend to the doctor. You need what the counselor can do for you anyway and you may get continuity of care through that person when you aren't getting it anywhere else. Just a thought I had.

I'm adding you to my prayers and wishes for the best possible medical care and asap. I hope you'll get good answers very soon because this delaying is hurting you very much. I hope you'll tell me here as soon as something good happens for you!

[Hidden in reply to BonnieSue]

Hi so I'm off my pills now and battling depression and now relationship issues also I've been suffering from brain zaps from being off my pills I've been on waiting lists since June last year so I'm not sure what's happening anymore last night my bf wanted a 3 sum and I don't I only said yes to make him happy a few weeks ago he said well it's happening anyways and a girl who was trying to sleep with him and he was hiding texts from me who lives down my street called him last night and they talked about our problems and how I get mad at him for watching porn so I got super upset and I punched myself in the face causing my nose to bleed and he is trying to say that I deserve better yet he says I'm controlling and crazy and worry to much but I have every right to feel how I feel

[BonnieSue in reply to Hidden]

You have feelings, yes, but trying to control him by punching yourself in the face is not appropriate. You could simply walk away from the situation instead of trying to control his behavior. And walk away when he insists you must be a part of a 3-some. That's resisting HIS control. Now c'mon, think this through before you act out.

[Hidden in reply to BonnieSue]

I didn't punch myself in the face to control him I feel I'm not good enough sometimes so I get mad at myself

[BonnieSue in reply to Hidden]

Ok, but here's what you said: "... and they talked about our problems and how I get mad at him for watching porn so I got super upset and I punched myself in the face causing my nose to bleed and he is trying to say that I deserve better yet he says I'm controlling and crazy and worry to much but I have every right to feel how I feel"

You are saying you didn't feel good enough in this situation so you punched yourself? He watched porn and you got upset so you punched yourself? Like you felt responsible for the porn? Were you? Or you expected that you should have found it and gotten rid of it? But you failed at that?