I doing understand . Some days I feel like I want to die , others I feel like I'm just walking through life until I can finally get into bed and be away from everyone else . I feel emotionally numb . Like I'm not really living , just surviving my depression . My life feels like it has no meaning . One minute I'm suicidal , the next I know I shouldn't kill myself bc I know of people that love me and would hate to see me go . I don't know what I'm doing anymore . I've been taking my Prozac for a couple months , but now it seems to be wearing off . Like I'm my old self again . Where is happiness ? Not with me .