hello, I could really use some help piecing my mess together. I’ll try to be brief but that may be difficult because there’s a lot to unpack.
2009 thyroidectomy for large goiter and hashimotos
Lived comfortably on 150/175 mcgs of Levo until perimenopause. Around that time i developed severe anxiety. My thyroid levels on 175 mcgs ft4 110% of range ft3 36% of range TSH .01 my dr at the time added an antidepressant and I pushed through for another few years. New doctor thought I would feel better with my levels balanced so my roller coaster ride with t3 began. I’ve literally tried everything and every combo you can imagine. I’m either hypo or hyper feeling.
I’ve been 5 years trying and ready to give up. I haven’t had a life in so long. T3 has always been difficult for me to tolerate. I drives my anxiety BUT once I get my ft3 to a decent level my anxiety vanishes.
In the past I’ve tolerated up 12.5 mcgs of t3 and I feel good for a few months but then I crash for various reasons - my ft4 goes too low, lower back pain, sleep issues etc. It feels like T3 just turns on me, so I would reset and build up my dose again. BUT lately, this has gotten to be impossible. I don’t know if it’s age (55) or my body is just worn out, or low vit levels, but this last crash has been terrible and I’m really scared. I need some t3 but cannot tolerate it. The past year or so has been dreadful and the last 3 months have been beyond my worst nightmares.
I’ll put pics of my cortisol saliva and my last reliable labs that I had when this most recent set back started. My dose at the time was 94.5/7.5 (May 2024). I was struggling to maintain the 7.5 of t3 but was functional and my anxiety was somewhat manageable then in a matter of a week or so anxiety exploded with panic attacks and I couldn’t tolerate my T3. I’ve been in a free fall ever since; changing meds, doses etc. bad I know. But desperation has made me crazy to fix this mess to my own detriment. Upon the encouragement of my dr I even tried t4 only, huge disaster on 75 mcgs of Tirosint, added depression to the anxiety party!
So currently I am back on 94.5 mcgs of levoxyl and trying to add T3. Even 1.25 mcgs of t3 taken with food gives me symptoms. Increased anxiety, tight chest, woozy/off balance, emotional etc. I’ve been trying to take 1.25 four times a day but after a few days I feel fried. Oh also, I’ve had early morning waking (3-4 am) for the past year or so.
I do have low B12 and just started injections yesterday. My iron I will attach. It’s weird because my ferritin isn’t bad but my actual iron labs are low.
Everything my naturopath gave me to take for my adrenals just made me feel worse. I feel stuck but I need to increase my t3. Do I push through despite symptoms? I’d feel better if I could get a 2.5 mcg dose in. These 1.25 doses don’t bring me up at all.
Also my symptoms are all over the place. I’m not fatigued and don’t feel sleepy and this puzzles me if I have low cortisol. Wouldn’t I be tired? Nothing hurts. I brisk walk twice a day, about 4 miles total. My motivation is in the gutter because of depression and anxiety I think. Loose BM’s when I try to take more T3.
Also, I had a blood morning cortisol test a while ago and it showed upper range but normal cortisol.
Any thoughts or input would be so appreciated. I’ve lost so much trying to find balance with T3.
thank you