I can't believe it, I really can't believe it. I almost feel sane now, still getting cravings but the NRT is dealing with those little sods.
Reasons to be cheerful Part 1:
I smell a whole heap better.
My teeth are whiter.
My house smells fine.
My car smells fine, especially with a cleaned out ashtray and a little rosemary oil dropped in it.
My complexion is better.
I am drinking less, how did that work??
Having cups of tea in bed in the morning rather than shivering on the back door step.
Staying up late reading in bed, rather than shivering on the back doorstep.
The lunatic dreams have gone!!!!
Beginning to sleep better now.
Watching a TV show all the way through rather than breaking off to have a fag.
OOOh smelling people after they have nipped out for one after a meal. I had forgotten how strong it really is.
Reading of 1 on the carbon monoxide indicator at the smoking clinic, it is usually 0 but is calibrated to always go back to one.
Getting through to the end of the week moneywise, not working at mo and that has been a real stresser.
Depriving shops and supermarkets of my income.
I feel much more confident, I didn't realise how inferior I felt as a smoker, I know they are not, but surrounded by my non smoking friends I always felt at a disadvantage, they are of course too lovely to ever have those views that was just me.
Reasons to be not so cheerful Part 1.
Still look longingly at passing smokers, wishing it could be me but also knowing it wont be, as Johnathon says. NOPE or I'll be back there.
Loving still, the smell of cigarette smoke, but knowing it won't be me producing it. My Mum who quit 28 years ago still loves that smell but has no desire to smoke.
Still thinking of cigarettes at key times, i.e first thing in the morning, after a meal, when feeling stressed and learning a whole new way of reacting to these triggers.
Well as a list of pros and cons that isn't bad is it. Never thought I would be saying this but to all of you who have supported me on here, a huge huge thank you, and to all of you earlier on in the journey, if I Ms Fagash can get this far then I'm sure you can too. Good luck. xxx