I have not logged onto this site for a while now... i quit on the 14th March.. im doing good i dont really count the days anymore just as i found that made me feel worse abit like when you count down the hours till work finishes.. im really proud of myself for how far ive got, its been a long constant stuggle which was not that long ago but at the same time a life time ago... ive gone through a lot of things in the past year and i honestly think quitting smoking was one of the hardest struggles..
i still feel like i have lost a part of me abit like a close friend but at the same time im liking this new part of me and im refuse to look back to the past..
ive changed a lot of things from my past that were holding me back and ive laid them to rest along with the dreaded cigarettes..
i still have my days where i have really strong cravings but over the last few months i have learnt how to deal with them.. thats the differents i have come to realise.. when i first joined this site i was going crazy and pulling my hair out with the cravings and i would read the forums from months ahead of me and see that people were still having cravings 3-4 months down the line and i wanted to give in..... but its not the having the cravings its the way you deal with them.. i think im always going to feel like a smoker and i could easily smoke a pack of fags now like i never stopped but i CHOOSE not to and i will continue to choose not too as im in control not the demons...
i went on my first holiday since i stopped and for the first time i managed to sit on a plane without constantily counting till i could run off and smoke.. it felt great..
CONGRATULATIONS to everyone on here for staying quit and for those making the steps to quit.........
and remember if at first you dont succeed then try try again...