Two weeks later and Im back, I still havent smoked, told you I wouldnt. I thought I would be off the forum for about a month but I didnt need that long after all.
I had a lot going on with hydrotherapy, pysiotherapy, my mum was poorly and Ive been looking after my grandson quite a lot, but everything has slowed down again for me. I will be going back to work on january 8th all being well and should have my grievance heard sometime before that, so all is going swimmingly for me.
On the smoking front, i have to be honest here, another reason I needed time away was I was struggling and I spent too much time on here reading and thinking about smoking all of the time. Being away has given me the time I needed to break away from my old habits and to stop thinking about it all of the time. I feel strong enough now to be able to help those that are new to quitting. I felt that my replies were getting samey....*good luck* Ive been there* etc. With this new found feeling of freedom I hope that I will be able to contribute something valuable again.
I dont have strong cravings anymore, I dont think about smoking constantly anymore, now, sometimes just in passing my brain forgets I dont smoke and the thought jumps into my head *oh i'll have a smoke when I finish this* and I stop and think idiot, you dont smoke and the thought leaves me. Im finding that I am a non smoker now and it pleases me.
I was at the hospital today for hydro and as I approached the main entrance all I could smell was smoke and I didnt enjoy the smell anymore, in fact I had to take a deep breath and rush past the smokers, it was bloody awful.
So there, Im pleased with how Im thinking, Im pleased Im a non smoker, Im pleased that the cravings have left me, Im pleased that on Thursday I hit week 7 but most of all Im pleased to be back here.